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Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
7:10 pm
look I'm updating!

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Thursday, November 24th, 2005
8:38 pm
I'm thankful for:

God blessing me with a wonderful family
also, being blessed with such wonderful, amazing, beautiful, understanding, caring, passionate friends. Who I love with ALL of my heart ♥
aka: Lauren Lee & Brittany Winchester & Jeff Schofield.
I'm SO, SOOOO, thankful for you three. Honestly, without you guys, I'd be no where. I love you all with every god damned fiber of my being! haha :D

I'm thankful for finding someone to love, and who loves me back. My wonderful boyfriend Jose :) the happiness that I'm feeling is incredible, and hopeful it won't leave anytime soon.

I'm thankful for this house that I live in, the shoes and clothes that I wear, the extra material things that I'm so lucky to have, but I don't really need.

I'm so thankful for my extended family too. Yeah we're fucked up, harsh to say, but SO true, I wouldn't ask for any other family. I love being with you all. Well...most of you :)

I'm thankful for New Jersey & my Mom-mom (gramma)
She's the most beautiful woman to me. She is the keeper of half of my heart. Without her love, I'd have to place to go and feel at home. I love her beyond death.

I love my mom and my dad. <3

I'm thankful for Patrick, and God bless him.

I'm thankful for God blessing me with the opportunity to know people like KC and Brian who through their life & death, have taught me valuable lessons and shared the most incredible laughs/memories with me. I thank God everyday for having friendships like yours. RIP ♥♥

there are SOOO many things that I'm thankful for.
<333 I love my life and all the people in to.


current mood: thankful

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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
5:33 pm

Oh. My. Gosh.
I'm updating.

Okay lets see...
-TOMORROW IS THE BLED. along with Underoath & Thrice. but THE BLED. @ 930.
-My birthday is on the 10th :]
-Brittany and I are going to NEW YORK on November 11th-13th. holy shitttt.
-Jose is wonderful and I'm so happy.
-I LOVE my friends.

School is okay for once.

Oh yeah, Mark asked me to Regimental Ball on the 18th and I cant wait. BOB and I are gonna go dress shopping soon and get this, we're taking an ESCALADE LIMO to Reg. Oooo0ooo yeah.

Halloween was awesome.

the end.

current mood: artistic

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Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
9:36 pm

On Sunday, my mom finally came home. Kinda lame how it took her so long. But whatever, I thought the trip worked out fine for her cause she seemed to be in a great mood, and she was really happy to see all of us.
Monday was my mom's birthday. I tried so hard to make it special. Patrick ruined it. Just like he ruins everyones birthdays. Mainly just mine & my mom's. Oh well. Birthday's pretty much suck anyways.

But at least she was happy.

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current mood: worried

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Thursday, September 8th, 2005
6:06 am
Oh Live Journal.
I neglect you so much.

Anyways, Yesterday was Silvia's birthday.
I Hope she had an AMAZING day :)

Jose and I have been officially "going out" since last Saturday.
I'm really happy about that :)
But I'm also really worried.
Hopefully it's just me...

Uhhhm, I have to read in front of my entire school at Mass tomorrow. I'm not too thrilled. haha

School is going just fine
I have to go there now

Green Tea fucking rocks.

<3 MEL.

current mood: indifferent

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Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
6:03 pm

Last night, Lauren, Britt, Luke & I slept at Jose's.
It was GREAT to say the least.
Aww Mel has a big crush. haha

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current mood: sleepy

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Monday, August 29th, 2005
2:31 pm - an exerpt from the XANNGAAA
As my last few days of summer come to a close, I'm realizing that this summer was anything but a dissapointment. It started out as a doubtful summer, because it didn't have half the potential as last summer did. But It's been an amazing summer. I went to a countless number shows with Brittany, and with other kidds. I even broke my nose at one. I went to St. Croix with Brittany, which are two of the most beautiful things on this earth. I went to Busch Gardens with my family and Britt, and to Ocean City with just Britt. Britt and I had our adventures and such. This summer we also found our favorite Thrift Store. Oh my Goddddd, it's amazing. haha. I was up in Gaithersburg/Germantown every weekend and most of the week to be with my friends. Our band played a few good shows. And some bad ones too. Brittfest was a great turnout. Warped tour with Lauren and having a sleepover with the boys at my house. Sneaking out to go to the pool in the middle of the night with my friends. Getting completely trashed at Henry's and having people take care of me. I finally got to see ERIKA and KELLY! There was nothing like that. We even visited KC's grave...which was hard, but really helped.

As for relationships, I let go of a few of them, started some new ones, and some grew stronger. I know that this summer has definetly brought me closer to Lauren Lee, Britt, and Arash. Three of my favorite people. I finally caught up with Erika and Kelly, which totally made an impact on my summer. I FINALLY let go of some past relationships, but was never more happy to just be friends with them again. I even started a new relationship, and I'm still working on that one . I also caught up with Ilana and Silvia. I forgot how much I missed them. They're too great.

So basically, another fantastic summer.
Summer 05' won't ever die

And maybe this school year won't be so bad...

current mood: giddy

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Friday, August 19th, 2005
2:23 pm
I'll just be waiting. I'm done with trying.

Brittfest was great.
I got to see the CCP again,
thats always good <3
and my band played well
as did the other bands
and it was an overall good turnout.


current mood: anxious

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Thursday, August 11th, 2005
12:02 am
Somebody please tell me
what am I suppose to do?
you died and I'm here
thinking that I hear your voice,
but it's somebody else
it's always somebody else
why did you die?
don't leave me please
I beg you God tonight bring me peace
I'll never sleep without
the dreams of you alive here with me
the brightness left your eyes
as I held your face
don't tell me it's the right time
and your last words will sustain me
until my end...until I see you again
white words evade me
i'll wait to remember you
and what you had meant to me
could never be forgotten
the chains of death
are falling, but my heart still bleeds
it longs for the day
when we will be as one.

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
3:26 pm



that's right, I said it.Collapse )

current mood: cheerful

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Sunday, July 24th, 2005
7:32 pm
"Mr. and Mrs. America--you are wrong. I am not the King of the Jews nor am I a hippie cult leader. I am what you have made me and the mad dog devil killer fiend leper is a reflection of your society. . .Whatever the outcome of this madness that you call a fair trial or Christian justice, you can know this: In my mind's eye my thoughts light fires in your cities."

I've been reading alot about Charles Manson within the past few months.
I can't help but find the whole thing really interesting. It's so crazy the way he thought and the way he worked things out in his head. Honestly..

Maddness is the divinest sense.

current mood: curious

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Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
12:53 pm
God Bless you Casey Smith
RIP, (7.19.89 - 7.19.03) <3

Two years ago today, I got the biggest shock of my life. Two years ago our hearts were broken. And two years ago, 2 friends and I had to deal with the hardest days of our lives. Each year it gets harder to realize that your not coming back with us, and you're not going to keep sharing those summers with us. It's unfair what this world throws at you, and the people it get thrown to. God we miss you so much. We all have so many things that we never got to say to you before you passed. And through that, I've learned one of the toughest lessons. I hope heaven is everything you dreamed it would be Angel, and Happy Brithday.

<3 Mel.

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Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
11:12 pm
Now my nose and my heart are broken.
eww that sounded so emo.

Doctors tomorrow for concusion
Maybe bowling
Ilana's party friday
McKenna's party saturday.


current mood: curious

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Monday, July 11th, 2005
11:52 am
St. Croix was amazing :)

oh boy oh boy.

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Monday, June 27th, 2005
1:27 pm
Summer has been really good so far.
Saw Modest Mouse
Saw The Low Life
Seeing Alkaline Trio on Wednesday
It's been good, chilling up in Gburg all the time.
It's nothing compared to last summer though. Nothing can really compare to that, everything was much better.

Anywho, I'm leaving for St. Croix with Brittany right after the Alk3 show. Let me know if you want a postcard! If so, leave me your address. Por favor.

Oh boy for St. Croix :D

current mood: busy

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Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
5:21 pm

Names of 20 Friends below.
1. Brittany
2. BOB
3. Bryan
4. Andre[Bravo]
5. Henry
6. Ja-Knee
7. Ilana
8. Gerard
9. Jeff
10. Harry
11. Jack
12. Arash
13. McKenna
14. Lissie
15. Silvia
16. Emily
17. Lauren
18. Susan
19. Romeo
20. Erika

Who is #8 going out with?
Megan Harris!
Is #9 a boy or a girl?
My big hunk of Korea! [male]
Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple?
hahahah that'd be very odd.
How about #18 and #4?
Woah...That'd be....hmph.
What grade is #17 in?
When was the last time you talked to #12?
Today! Before he went job hunting
What is #6's favorite band?
I would have to say Coheed and Cambria (?)
Does #1 have any siblings?
Yep, un hermana named KELLY.
Would you ever date #3?
aw! maybe baby.
Would you ever date #7?
We already have ;)
Is #16 single?
si me gusta bailar.
What's #15's last name?
Omg its so hard. Arieira [If thats not right, Its the same backwards as forwards!]
What's #10's middle name?
What's #5's favorite thing to do?
Play drums maybbeee?
Is #13 hot?
Dead Sexy?
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple?
haahahah, It would really make me laugh.
What school does #20 go to?
Sandy Spring.
Tell me a random fact about #11?
He loves to watch Arash dance naked.
And #1:
She used to not let me touch her wrists. Also, she was dancing once...and her towel came off! tehe.
And #3:
He had sex with Mrs. Bravo.
Have you ever had a crush on #15?
yes ;)
Where does #9 live?
Olney. Off of Hines Road.
What's #4's favorite color?
blue and pink?
Would you makeout with #14?
well of course.
Are #5 and #6 best friends?
They're cousins. And really close, so yeah.
Does #7 like #20?
They've never met!
Does #8 like #19?
Yeah, they're Gonads apparently.
How did you meet #2?
ESCUELA (it's for the cool kidds)
How did you meet #18?
Through Brittany.
Does #10 have any pets?
a pet brick named peaches.
Is #12 older than you?
Is # 17 the sexiest person alive, or what?

current mood: bored

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Thursday, May 26th, 2005
6:48 pm
i miss – him. my family.
i love – feeling happy, snickers, my friends.
i ache – for that complete feeling
I long – to reach my goals.
i always – screw up.
i am not – gorgeous.
i am – only a girl. only a friend.
i tell – stories.
i lie – about the stupidest things.
i contradict – myself
i dance – always!
i sing – when I want bitch.
i cry – when it hurts.
i fail – , I fail.
i fight – when there's something worth fighting for
i write – emotions.
i make – lots of mistakes.
i lose – my shtuff. :D
i never – want to lose my family and friends.
i confuse – you!
i listen – to music. to my friends.
i am scared – of spiders. of the unknown.
i find – happiness in the little things.
i want – to be loved.
i need – to drink some tea.
i have – no idea what he's thinking.
i think – about life.
i smell – happy.
i crave – to know what people really feel about me.
i wonder – what I could’ve done different.
i care – about my friends. about my family. about him.
i don't – want to die.
i feel – like ass.
i scream – when I’m pissed off.
i play – around.
i follow – my standards.
i can – keep truckin'
i can't – give up.
i laugh – at everything
i am quiet – when I need to think.
i wait – forever
i won't – let go.
i will – succeed.
i should – try harder.
i shouldn't- stop.

current mood: blah

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Friday, May 13th, 2005
6:21 am
[I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life

and in my dreams...

He said, I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into.]

current mood: distressed

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Sunday, April 24th, 2005
9:34 am
Did you ever realize why there are no stars in the sky?
Because they're on the ground.
The air is brown.
We're trapped in this town.
Let me go -- I can't breathe.
I drag myself through the debris.
I never felt more alone than on this starry road.

The air is warm but I feel grey.
The chill of dawn on a funeral day.
I lie in unrest while heavy dirt falls to my chest.
I fade away and the hollow phantoms stay.

Imagination in a chokehold, I've been steamrolled by gold records.
Inspectors are watching over me, under lock and key.
Chalk my outline; they'd talk of this if I'd died from a broken heart.
They've taken art, turned it to something they think we'll buy.

The air is warm but I feel grey.
The chill of dawn on a funeral day.
I lie in unrest while heavy dirt falls to my chest.
I fade away and the hollow phantoms stay.

My blood is their liquid vitamin.
Their madness festers under their skin!

The air is warm but I feel grey.
The chill of dawn on a funeral day.
I lie in unrest while heavy dirt falls to my chest.
I fade away and the hollow phantoms stay.

I have never felt so alone in my whole life.

current mood: sleepy

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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
6:39 am
So yeah. It's 6:39 in the morning and I kinda don't feel like moving to go to school. bwahha.

So I have today and a half day on wednesday and than SPRING BREAK in San Diego with my family. We were going to go on a cruise, but instead we're going ot San Deigo..which is awsome to me because I'm just lucky to go anywhere!

I don't have alot of clothes though.
:[ poo. hhaha, not that it matters.

So yes LiveJournal has lost it's sparkle.
It's gotten to serious for me, and somewhat boring.
Plus NOO ONE comments. hah. I don't care



current mood: content

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